2012

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I've been baking/cooking quite a bit recently mostly out of boredom but also for J and I's future Uni life. I reckon it's better to start learning now (even though sometimes the end product isn't... ideal) than to starve to death there. 

Anyway, back to my point, I've been bookmarking some food sites/blogs for recipes. And my goodness, seriously, I have never wanted a calendar so badly in my life ever. The above calendar is just so... perfect. But sadly I can't fork 24 USD right now out of my peasant wallet :(

I do hope they sell like hotcakes though! Buy here or here.

Familiarity

I have decided to get my act together and move on. It's ok if I lose a few friends. Are they really friends in the first place if our friendship can be destroyed so easily? I don't think so. I guess that's what it is to grow up. You gain some, you lose some. I will hold on to those I love and I will enjoy my new-found liberation.

Thank you J for wiping my tears, scolding me to bring me to my senses and doing all that you can to make me happy again. You must be so proud of me, sorry for putting you through all my bullshit.

Little update

What my 2 kiddies have been up to. One just got braces a week back and from the moment he stepped into the house, his face was permanently stuck in that look-at-my-teeth smile so I took a few pictures of him. Thought it would be funny to have some sort of record of how ugly his teeth were prior to braces to scare his future kids.

The other little one is having her PSLE now. But of course, instead of studying, this is what she does during her "break time" which spans about 2-3 hours where she lies on my bed and read my magazines and ask things like "What are cellulites?" and make comments like "I like this Philip Lim designer's clothes". 

Turning into braces freak and vainpot respectively. I love my siblings.

Not all who wander are lost

After a few mishaps in the afternoon that delayed our meeting time and we couldn't do lunch, Jotham and I finally got to meet. I feel like we haven't been seeing each other much the past week though it's probably not true. I'm just being silly, as usual. Anyway, we went to Pique-nique (is it possible to be together or separate?) to have a ultra late brunch/lunch/early dinner/snacktime at 5pm. And it was about time I brought my camera out because it was seriously growing moldy in its bag. I don't know if it's me, but I think the pictures came out wonky. I should be ashamed to say that these pictures were taken with a DSLR.

The food was okay, nothing too fantastic though. I need to remember to never order eggs benedict ever again. I like it but I can never eat more than 1 egg with that sauce that comes with it. It makes me wanna puke.

I can never keep a straight face whenever Jotham takes my picture. I just have this unexplainable need to do faces and laugh like a crazy hyena and when pictures turn out shitty (and they always do), I will always be like "Why are my pictures so uggggglyyyyyyyyy???!!! You are a lousy photographer." Oh well, sucks to be you HAHAHAHAHA

As I was taking pictures while waiting for the food to come, something struck me. And the conversation when something like this...

Me: *snaps pictures of J*

J: *does weird faces and multiple poses*

Me: *sudden realisation* Omg, you're actually enjoying this, don't you? You like to have picture taken, don't you?

J: - inserts awkward laughters and no answers but basically saying yes -

Me: Vainpot. *facepalms*

O lovely day. It was as if yesterday's post never happened. It did, but I would like to think that I'm dealing with my issues in a calmer and more matured manner than just blindly lashing out at everyone who cares about me. 

Starlight

It's 6.40 am and I haven't slept a wink. The last time I remember myself not sleeping at all through the night was probably a year ago when I had school work like Web Design or Loc Vid to rush. But tonight, it's different. It's the first. 

I just saw the first glimpse of sunlight through my window. The faint ray glowing brighter with every minute. I wish I could see the sunrise but alas, the sun don't rise from the west. Birds are starting to chirp and I hear buses zooming by. It's so quiet and surreal, I almost feel like crying. But then again, I feel like crying/actually cry at almost everything nowadays. 

I am empty inside. God has once again shown me that I am nothing without Him. Try as hard as I might, I will always come back to God eventually. Crawling, sprawling or running, it doesn't matter. I must go back. Human strength is limited but God's unlimited. Draw near and drink up, drink deep.

It is practically bright outside now. Funny how it only takes a few minutes to lit up the world. My body is tired but my mind is wide awake. I need some sleeping pills.

Hey girl, you're so fine

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Rolling Over

I'm still here. Been busy with gym (I still can't get over it, why do I go and willingly get tortured week after week), meeting people (like Xinyee, Junda & Junguan in above picture where we went bowling & watched Final Destination 5) and spending extra lots of time with Jotham. 

Preparing for a job interview later at 5pm. I'm really confused if I want to do this but I'll just pray for the best. God, please turn up :/