Weekends

Weekends are the most precious time of the week. And this weekend was priceless. I basically glued myself to Jotham's house because the poor boy fell sick. I know it's just fieldcamp but omg, he came back thinner and looked like he actually came back from war with all the scars and sickness. ): Army is a phase of life that we will have to work through somehow.

I honestly don't understand how J can be so smitten and sure of his love for me when I'm so silly and insecure half the time. Thank you God for graciously giving me someone so wonderful and thank you babydoll for being the awesome human being that you are. Muahz

To the moon and back

Nothing is as awesome as sitting at a rocky wooden table by the roadside of Geylang gorging on durians, mangosteens (is this how you spell it??) and sipping coconuts with your family. Although it gave me a tummyache the next morning, it was worth it.

Random picture of a sleepy kitty at Jotham's estate which I've grown to like a lot. Although it does look like a demon cat sometimes. But it's so lazie like us sprawling on the bed on a hot afternoon...... Meh. I miss Jotham. Fieldcamp week will be over in a jiffy!

Twentieeeee

I (finally) turned 20 yesterday! Siyun was super duper nice to have brunch with me at The Plain and I really, really wanted to go there for such a long time! + this girl really knows me best, I mean, just look at the presents! Cute and totally my style. <3 

We even look alike (somehow) HAHAHA thank you sweetie <3 truly friends for life.

Then my shoe broke while walking (lol) and we went to Topshop to buy new shoes & a sparkly velvet party dress for myself! It was too adorable and too fitting to pass up! Then I proceeded to Timbre @ Old School to eat up a storm with LLL clique (minus Evan and Dk) and of course, we ordered the duck pizza. And some weird but really tasty sunnyside-up pizza!

Song dedication was pretty much a fail as their text didn't show up on the screen but it's the company that mattered the most to me. So grateful to have my babies take time out to celebrate and spend the day with me xoxo muacks to all. Oh, and people who texted or called to wish me happy birthday, I am so blessed. 

What is hidden in snow comes forth in the thaw

After desperation comes inspiration. It's so true. Journalism isn't quite working out for me (but you can read my fashion articles at Fever Avenue here, if it pleases you) so I'm considering my options. I wish I had thought of my options earlier instead of being so stubborn. Maybe I was just silly. But anyway, options.

I don't consider myself to be super independent, I do need to talk to people about my feelings and my frustrations. I just can't deal with them on my own half the time. I need to cry, need to go a little crazy and prolly freak out a little before I am capable to deal with my issues. My go-to person in such times, who also happens to be my bestest friend and lover *ahem* and gives the most sound advice in the whole wide world, is not around much except 5 mins every night. Honestly, how does one summarises 24 hours of feelings and frustration and happiness in 5 mins. Plus it's a two-way conversation so make that 2.5 mins. But ok, baby steps. One day at a time. So far so good.

Independence don't happen overnight. Neither do success. Freelancing as I go along. Taking baby steps. It's all part of the shaping process. Plus I have a big God. I know I'll look back at this low period in my life in the future and laugh and say "hey, it was essential".

Heartlines on your head

So, I spent my weekend with Jotham. Picked him up on Friday night at Pasir Ris like an overeager girlfriend with Garrett popcorn after attending 2 events with the Fever Avenue peeps. It was quite a joke because White Sands was sooooo crowded and everyone kind of look the same with the uniforms and caps. Almost didn't recognise this boy with no hair. 

Got home, he washed up and we went for a midnight movie to watch Immortals (which wasn't very good, btw) and that felt like death because we were so tired and worn out. Drove home, slept and to squeeze the most out of the little time we had, we woke up at 11 and got our asses to beach road's army market to "shop" (I use this term loosely) for army essentials. Then we headed to Central for some ramen lovin' and attempted to draw money to go to a flea at Home Club but all the ATMs was either out of cash or not working ._. So, we went home to nap (LOL the laziness) and parted sad ways as I went to Grandmother's birthday dinner and he went to Fifa with his boys.

Today, I woke up super early at 8 (had a late night, don't judge) to go to church with Jotham since I kinda missed my own service yesterday. Then we went to grocery shop at Nex for food to bring into camp and we spent hours trying to fold his uniforms and pack his huge bag. Failed so badly. Need to cuddle after not meeting for 2 weeks is insane. And (sobs) his parents drove us to Pasir Ris and after Jotham booked in, we went for dinner and that was my weekend. Probably the first time I actually wrote down what I did during the weekend on this blog, tiredness is overtaking my brain.

Just a picture of The Orange Thimble which I stumbled upon during the week. My birthday is coming up, I need to start making plans. No birthday wishlist this year because they don't work ever. Goodnight everybody!!

Thanksgiving

Random sort of old picture of me before my haircut + my new specs which I'm totally not used to + what Jotham likes to call, my spastic hands. Totally unrelated to what I came to blog about.

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!!!! MOM'S BIRTHDAY <3 <3 <3 & JOTHAM'S FIRST BOOK OUT DAY. SO PSYCHED BEYOND WORDS, OH HOW AM I GOING TO SLEEP TONIGHT. Oh, and happy thanksgiving day.

Perfection...

Is this bag. Seriously. I think I want this more than a 2.55 now but poor me, my bank account will not be able to take it. Neither will my parents' hearts. 

Hehe anyway, I went to my first event with the Fever Avenue team and how apt that it's the showcase for H&M S/S12 collection. I died looking at the selection of clothes. Already making mental note on what to buy. Oh, did I mention their press kit is freaking awesome and clean and makes me so happy? I love this look from their lookbook.